Disconnected.

She closes the door on everyone else and watches the rest of the world go on without her. She then begins to search for something to fill in the void deep inside of her, but is unable to figure out exactly what that would be. She is reexamining each friendship and relationship she has, and then goes on to reexamine her own purpose in this world. Troubled, frustrated, and pensive, she violently grabs a pen, hopelessly wishing it would turn into a sharp object she could use to puncture herself so all of these lingering thoughts of worthlessness can bleed out from her, seeping into the ground to never be seen, heard or thought of again. But the pen doesn't change form no matter hard she convinces herself it would, so she buries herself in her pillow and hopes the pain would go away in the form of tears. The big monster has awoken inside of her once again, whispering sinister words into her mind about herself and the people around her. Consequently, she disconnects herself, letting herself become consumed by this vicious monster. "All your doubts are true," it sneers, "Let them flourish."